At the end of last year, there appeared a lot of conflicts between our little disciples. My younger daughter cried every Friday night after Fa study for about a month. Finally, it got so bad that she cried from Friday to Saturday, and had tears all day long.
It's been a long time that I always felt dissatisfied with our little disciples making a lot of noise during group study. But I never thought about trying to solve the problem myself.
I had always felt that I was not good at taking care of children. I felt difficult when facing a bunch of children. Now conflicts got big, and it would be even worse if the parents and children stopping coming to group study because of this.
I looked inside and saw that I had an attachment of being afraid of trouble; and that I had a selfish mind of not willing to contribute; and that I lacked compassion and patience. I knew I need to correct myself. How? I was worried that I would not be able to take care of the children.
At this time, some other parents suggested that we separate the boys and the girls during Fa study. I thought to myself, I should be able to deal with this small group of girls.
With little confidence, I volunteered to take the girls to do Fa study for some consecutive weeks. I wanted to find a way to help the children to do Fa study quietly, and that they should absolutely not cause interference to the adults' Fa study, and that the children should make no noise during the adult's Fa study and Fa Zhengnian time, and that the children should not go looking for their mom during that time either. Basically, I hoped they would be quiet before 9:30pm. It would be good for both parents and the children if they could behave like that. Interfering with Fa study would result in karma; also it's a very bad case of not respecting Shifu and not respecting the Fa.
I begged Shifu in my heart. I told Shifu that I really wanted the children to do Fa study quietly, and to behave like Dafa disciples. I hoped to have enough patience and compassion to take care of these children. I begged Shifu's support.
Things because surprisingly easy. I did the exercises with the children and corrected their movements. We did Fa study. We studied "Di Zi Gui", which is one of the classic elementary textbooks from ancient China. I read stories from Minghui website. And I also planned some time for them to do crafts. I only allowed them to go to restroom between sessions. The children all reacted positively for such an arrangement and cooperated well.
Sometime later, two boys also joined us. I felt a little nervous at the beginning when I saw them, and I was able to adjust myself very soon. And they adapted to the new schedule quickly as well.
When we studied "Di Zi Gui", I tried to explain the ancient Chinese text using English and modern Chinese. Still, the kids looked confused. Then I found, as long as one kid was able to understand and express the understanding using his or her own words, other kids would be able to understand. Thus, I tried my best to interact with them to make sure that they all understood what we were learning. We created plays at the scene, and turned a small story into a small play, and then all children were able to understand what we were learning. I felt Shifu gave me the wisdom and taught me how to study with the children interactively.
I had always thought I was not one to narrate stories. Then suddenly, I became smart and was able to do storytelling that captured attention. I am very touched. I knew Shifu helped me and gave me the ability.
I think, Shifu helped me because I had a desire to uphold the environment of our group study. He removed some of my attachments and notions because of this. I felt Shifu is helping me as long as I could keep a righteous mind, and that I could resist the bad thoughts. Once again, I experienced what Shifu said in Zhuan Falun, "Cultivation depends on one’s own efforts, while the transformation of gong is done by one’s master." Once again, I felt Shifu's tremendous compassion.
